Last night , I was meditating, and wondering how I could address some little stumbling blocks on the 3 Selves.
When I was in Phoenix, I was talking with a dear friend about the Inner Child, and she said it was like she had multiple personalities. Inner Child, Mind, and some big self. I have heard this from quite a few friends and somehow not being able to really connect with the subconscious/inner child. Somehow it made it more difficult.
Sleepless nights is a great time to do some of my inner work. Last night I saw the three selves as three streams of light/consciousness that filled my inner world, creating either divergent outcomes, chaos, or working together to elevate the triple man, or humaness and begin to unite and merge.
IT was like three giant tubes of paint, releasing its color or expression, and doing this dance within. By doing Ho'oponopono and cleaning programming and memories, the dance changed into this most beautiful mesmerizing light show.
It never has been like 3 beings living inside me and it has been helpful to understand their specific roles.
Our neighborhood is tackling this kudzu invasion and with 5 families we certainly have many opinions and alas some tensions. I turned my focus within me to know this is just my memory. My focus came off trying to fix the situation, and look inside. I was elated with the results and ease of a moment that in the past would have been a huge reaction.
The next day a different situation showed itself, and was more difficult for me to come back to my center. It is like flexing a never used muscle and am excited to live "not taking things so personally".
I have been working with the 3 selves for over 12 years and feel like a new babe in my understanding. Things are working, and energies are starting to let loose.
Situations that would have stopped me in my tracks are not only becoming manageable, a sense of discovery and adventure is being birthed.
My greatest takeaway is unless I build a deeper inner trust, and invoke my High Self and Creator, my patterns and memories will not transform.
I really am at a pause with my blog. Initially I did not think I was going to pull through and I thought maybe someone might benefit from my journey so I wanted to be sure some of it was in writing. Some of the tools, some of the magic, and assuming greater responsibility is the doorway to freedom.
I am at a new place, an unknown place and at a moment of birthing a new life. Intellectually I know what steps to take, however I am leaping into the unknown from the unknown of who I am and I trust the choices I am making. Sharing how I did it would be a fib/lie/untruth.
I will continue to write as long as I have something meaningful to share and that does not have to be polished for me.
I will recommend 3 small books that are life altering and informative and it is about Ho'oponopono and the 3 selves.
Blue Ice The relationship with the Self
Blue Ice Memories and Relationships
Blue Ice Get to the Cleaning
by Kamailelayli'l Raraelovich LMT, R, MBA.
Ihaleakala Hew Len Ph.D.
Momilani Ramstrym, Ph.D.
I found them on Amazon, If you get all three ask for combined shipping. They are pure gold.
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The reality is when going for big change in your life, the first thing that seems to appear are all the reasons why it can't happen. One of my teachers used to say, what comes up is what needs to be elevated and transformed in order for that change to take place. Add to that my newest important distinction, is making sure your inner child is on board for that change.
Judgement on what you are feeling will throw a big monkey wrench in the works.
When our perceptions are filtered through good/bad, right/wrong, we are handicapped to find new solutions and to see clearly. When we are present or aware, without judgment, our actions align with our commitments.
When we judge, we begin to try, and create doubt and tension.
When I lock up I go to my big picture or purpose
Purpose is the direction and intensity of your intent, sets your goal and moves you to it.
It takes trust to allow your simple awareness, your ”inner child” to take charge, explore trial and error to reach peak experience or performance.
Permission to fail. I think it has taken almost a lifetime to know the importance of failure. I become aware of the importance of my inner dialogue and reaching for gentleness in my approach. Speaking to my inner child as if it is a 3 year old.
Imagine you have permission to fail, a second chance, leaving you free to deal with the task at hand. We can stop trying and be one with the moment. Eliminate concern for getting it right. By releasing conscious control and turning it over to the “inner child”, difficult tasks can be easily dealt with.
Here is a powerful exercise
Focus on one of the senses
Feelings, Physical and Emotional
By focusing on the now, we relax our “trying” and allow us to choose the most
natural direction for change.
We can feel, know what works and what doesn’t.
Noticing subtle changes gives us new tools to solve problems and build on
Awareness can sometimes allow us to see the problem behind the problem.
Accepting the situation as it is sometimes opens the opportunity for change. (so amazingly powerful). Neville says own your current reality and it will set you free.
Pay attention to how you feel when doing your job.
Find what you can love, or enjoy.
When we don’t challenge ourselves, cause ourselves to stretch, we sink into mediocrity and boredom. We reach new heights by building on what we know, mastering technique, instilling confidence, inspiring us to learn more. Noticing our growth as it occurs provides us with the encouragement and discipline to continue learning. It is through this repetition, we begin trusting the relationship with the “inner child”; opening the doors to our vast reservoir of knowledge and ability to problem solve and find solutions.
Setting your goals for achievement, experience and learning.
Your goal/outcome will work in your “inner child” and drive you forward
Here is a really powerful exercise in journaling.
Learning goal; to handle my fear of failure and to have better concentration
Create a goal or outcome journal
Write in it everyday
Long range 5-10 years
Medium range 1-5 years
Short range 2-15 weeks
This weeks goal
Next weeks goal
Barriers to Trust (identify)
Doubting your Ability (identify)
Fear of losing Control (notice)
Concern about how you are perceived (identify)
Trust must be present to turn things over to our “inner child”, the most capable aspect of our being.
“Letting go to the environment”.
Look around the room for something that possesses the quality you feel you are lacking. Feel it, experience it through your senses, then get back to the task at hand. This will trigger access to the “Me”.
“Letting go to overload”.
“Letting go to the impossible”. Often a fruitful doorway during crisis. It is really letting go to the possible, the potential within.
The ‘Consciousness” is concerned with failure, and unless we become vulnerable and accept it as possibility we can never know how far our “inner child” can take us. What first looks stressful or negative, can be understood as opportunities for discovering resolution and solutions, we can begin to flow with them. Our greatest pleasures often embrace our ability to bring a seemingly negative situation into harmonious resolution. Our goal is to experience the now fully, without judgment.
There are many spiritual traditions, and new ones emerging. One thing they have in common is the effort to get to know the essence of a person, the essence of oneself in all its complexity, ranging across the spectrum from divinity to senseless animal willfulness.
In medical care many drugs and treatments are of dubious therapeutic value.The major infectious diseases are eradicated not by pharmaceutical but by improved hygiene and living conditions.
The most effective pharmaceutical known is the placebo. They are effective because the patient believes they will work. When I have worked with clients on their health I encourage them to design their protocol according to what they believe in. My road is my road and would never recommend anyone to adapt my way. Although I do stress the importance of the role of the subconscious and inner child. It must be on board to work its healing magic.
From User Illusion
The understanding and sympathy of a good doctor or nurse can inspire the belief that a patient will get better. (Same is true when given a death sentence, or incurable diagnosis) In this context. It is less important which pharmaceuticals are used, even though for many patients it is vital that a pharmaceutical be used.
Upon receiving a prognosis and diagnosis the most important issue to
What can happen when such a pharmaceutical is employed is the Consciousness of mental body again begins to trust the ability of the Inner Child or subconscious to heal itself. Disease often involves crises in which we lose faith in our own abilities: overwork, disappointments, and unhappiness make the body say Stop, and that we no longer believe that we can cope with the situation and recover.
The Consciousness does not want to let the inner child/subconscious have its way by giving in to the urge to go to bed and eat candy while we watch soap operas and read magazines. The mental body does not believe in the self healing powers of the inner Child (which runs our bodies).
So the relationship between treater and treated is a relationship between the patients mental body and inner child/subconscious.
A cornea transplant experiment. Prior to surgery SB was active happy and mastered many activities not normally associated with the blind. After his bandages were removed, he heard a voice, and saw nothing but a blur. He realized this must be a face because of the voice. He did not suddenly see the world of objects. As he regained he had no trouble recognizing many objects familiar to him only through touch.
A year after his surgery he died from depression. Seeing the world had been a disappointment. His story tells us how hard it is to see something we have not simulated beforehand. Believing is seeing.
The consciously controlled body deals with everything to do with the willpower and thinking: everything one can do with one’s body if one wants. The other does everything one cannot control. It deals with the circulation, the reflexes, digestion, sexuality and emotional reactions.
The most important bridge between the two bodies is respiration. We can control our breathing consciously. Many mental and spiritual techniques are based on this: Developing our breathing. This is how we build chi or mana, which is manifested through our body and run by our inner child/subconscious.
This is why it is so vital to get your subconscious/inner child on board.
Yesterday I looked back over my journey since December last year. I had what I called a lifting of the heaviness of my journey, then into January I could not add and subtract, or count to 50. I always had a somewhat sharp mind and a remarkable memory. I was terrified. I also had not seen a dentist in a year and was having pain in my lower jaw throughout most of last year. The dentist gave me an estimate of between $25-29,000. Not even possible.
That is what got me exploring going to Mexico and going for saving my life. I knew I was in trouble. Abscesses galore. I was doubting I had what it took to turn it around. For years I held the belief that the body was capable of healing anything, especially if I was working on the consciousness piece and supporting myself with plant medicine and good food. I was out of ideas. Off I went.
8 months later my memory is returning, my energy is building, my creativity is emboldened. A business of 30 years collapsed 2 months ago so I have been scrambling a bit. I am however developing a deeper trust and faith things are going as they should and will work out. Sometimes I panic, and many times I am at peace.
Sundays are always a day of reflection and I was able to witness all the amazing challenges that worked out, the wonder of facing my greatest fears, and accessing the body's ability to come back into balance. I would have to say a very extraordinary 8 months. And I have quite a journey in front of me. My path is clearing, and becoming clearer and I am better off for these teachings from the tooth fairy.
I am reminded of the power of experiencing what obstacles turn into in the healed state. It definitely propelled me forward. I trust that premise. I experience all the challenges of the past enhancing and gifting me with a wondrous and magical relationship with Mother Earth and her worlds. It remains a bit challenging for me to be around a lot of people. I have some treasured long standing friendships that are renewed, and moving forward to find out who I am as an artist, and this project I am jumping into. This is something I have held near and dear to my heart for years. I will share more later.
I can see how important it is to make sure the subconscious is on board for the changes being asked for. To care for that relationship with greater attention and an awakening to the fact that the inner child is willing to follow and enhance this journey with its vast resources. Celebrating victories is important, really important. I saw an exercise one to write all your successes on little pieces of paper and put them in a jar or bowl. This exercise had you open it at the beginning of the new year and Ii would reflect a few times a month would be very powerful. It is so easy to fall into the habit of seeing all the things that need to be changed, and slip into the good/bad right/wrong approach to life.
Take a moment, and fling the door open to your victories, small, large, one step at a time victories, celebrate them and experience a profound shift in connecting to your intuition and inner child. Rest in knowing you are on course.
It took me ages to discover the power of healing my judgments. Becoming present to difficult feelings, and beginning to learn how to welcome up those feelings, without judgement. It seemed to ignite an innate ability to come into balance. Weaving into this simple process the awareness of speaking to my subconscious/inner child as if it was a young child settled many fears. Honestly it has taken years of trial and error to learn the power of this inner relationship and its role in hearing "Spirit" and manifesting my outcomes.
Adding to this the knowing when manifesting is plugged up, it is usually fear in the inner child of the changes asked for and is lacking in trust. I feel that what is required here, the motherly charge of nurturing and loving that aspect of self.
Generations of brokenness and the transformation of reactive patterns and memories can happen here.
For years I have been driven by my strong will. Willfully fixing this and that, and all the trappings of the intellect. Really very little can heal from this place. It must be done from asking Divinity or Creator to heal these programs. And first you have to acknowledge their existence within. All that is happening in my life is an out-picturing of an unresolved trauma or memory. And with an inner child that processes 11,000,000 bits of information a second no wonder life is eternal.
As I remembered my childhood history, I certainly tried to tame that aspect of self, filled with sadness, anguish, and terror, by dominating those feelings, judging them as base in nature, and to be controlled at all costs. Deep inside I lived from a fear I would surely not live through looking at or feeling those feelings.
I think I knew I had used my judgments of others to manage my fear of intimacy, even by my judgement that they needed to be fixed or helped. The man that has had the greatest effect on my life said it is the healers of the world that have messed things up so much. I have spent over 12 years exploring that conversation and inquiry.
Who am I to judge. Creator and High Self has plans and solutions far greater than anything I could come up with.
Discomfort with my own pain was a big motivating factor in fixing others as well. I found the more comfortable I became at feeling my own pain it opened to door to listen deeper, judge less, and be filled with a profound compassion and love. I quit trying to fix them, and focus endlessly on healing myself.
Change yourself and the whole world changes. Starting to get it.
There is a documentary on this evening called Breaking Hate. I am so grateful for all the News Journalists that remain truth seekers and impartial and direct reporting. The divisive nature of our politics is concerning, and it is time to walk into this arena so we can heal ourselves and our world. We can be emboldened to walk into our past choices so we can effect radical change. Our entire world is aching for change, and it is time we correct our current course of action.
I do not believe one person is bringing this on, and I do believe our political leaders are demonstrating our inner divide, our darker and darkest nature. If we can lift our hearts a bit and seize this moment to create change that has been long awaiting our readiness and commitment to truth and honor.
My heart aches for the families seeking refuge and having their children ripped away. We are demonstrating a long held fear of "otherness" and making devastating choices for these children and families. They will spend a lifetime or lifetimes learning how to deal with these acts and help will be forever wired into betrayal at the deepest levels. We only have to look at the devastating effects on the lives of Native Americans and our ancestral genocidal actions to destroy an entire civilization. We are a long way from making amends.
I have crawled out of worlds of devastating and oppressive lifestyles, and I have a glimmer of what is involved in healing the aftermath of this hatred and inner divide. I know together we can heal our inner divide, and bring relationship, responsibility and care back into our societies, flinging the door open to massive healing and harmony.
Many Native Americans have teachings predicting this time of great choice.
We are at that place of choice. It can be an amazing time of change and transformation.
We have to learn from the choices made and the consequences of those actions. We are destroying much at this time. This can only be done through our hearts, and by facing our darker nature then together elevating this conversation.
We must do this for our children, and our earth. We have power mongers killing these precious beings, blowing them up, ripping them away, dowsing them with chemical weapons, for what?
For those of us that hear the call, we are here to protect the sacredness of children and life on this great planet. Healing our inner divide is the fastest way. That is where we will find our heart's direction.
One of my great teachers was sharing information on how unresolved issues gets passed down for generations until made right. The example he gave was if your grandfather cut someone's head off with an ax, the weight of causing the death of another would surely visit many generations.
That has been my experience. There was great harm caused to others by my lineage, and it has taken a lifetime to reach a tipping point of healing and beginning to make things right. I am not sure if eternity is enough time for the inter-generational trauma my family created.
I just happened to reach a point in my awareness to know I chose this family, and I chose to end the extreme brokenness they carried, and yes my own brokenness. Crushing would be putting it mildly and it has taken extreme tenacity and commitment to reach this sweet spot I am beginning to experience. I am getting ready to turn 68 and I am at a place in my life where a complete reinvention of my life is being called for. I am gratefully peaceful about this for most of the day. I am getting ready to write a proposal for a project I have held in my heart for years. My passion has been to "sing my soul". To find an expression of my life work that is new and to make a difference in the world.
I think most of us are purpose driven, and for sure I am. I never could just sit up here on this mountain and paint pretty pictures.
I honestly never thought I would have lived long enough to be able to catch my breath and experience this place of trust.
In hindsight, healing inter-generational trauma, requires much, learning how to discharge pain is vital, and calling in ancestors and those that have loved you makes the whole journey doable. Family and community support is the way. My heart aches for the trauma we have caused the Native Americans and the horrendous trauma we caused them.
The tools I have found, held the door open to find a way out, and to heal myself and the 7 generations back and the 7 generations to come. The 3 Selves is foundational, the triple man. Working to elevate our consciousness. Ho'oponopono is the most profound system of making things right, healing ourselves first and therefore our world.
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Its time to start an difficult conversation.
More to come.
Over thirty-five years ago I made a powerful commitment to do whatever it took to heal myself.. My emotional life was a mess and I began my search for tools and technologies that produced