Yesterday I looked back over my journey since December last year. I had what I called a lifting of the heaviness of my journey, then into January I could not add and subtract, or count to 50. I always had a somewhat sharp mind and a remarkable memory. I was terrified. I also had not seen a dentist in a year and was having pain in my lower jaw throughout most of last year. The dentist gave me an estimate of between $25-29,000. Not even possible.
That is what got me exploring going to Mexico and going for saving my life. I knew I was in trouble. Abscesses galore. I was doubting I had what it took to turn it around. For years I held the belief that the body was capable of healing anything, especially if I was working on the consciousness piece and supporting myself with plant medicine and good food. I was out of ideas. Off I went.
8 months later my memory is returning, my energy is building, my creativity is emboldened. A business of 30 years collapsed 2 months ago so I have been scrambling a bit. I am however developing a deeper trust and faith things are going as they should and will work out. Sometimes I panic, and many times I am at peace.
Sundays are always a day of reflection and I was able to witness all the amazing challenges that worked out, the wonder of facing my greatest fears, and accessing the body's ability to come back into balance. I would have to say a very extraordinary 8 months. And I have quite a journey in front of me. My path is clearing, and becoming clearer and I am better off for these teachings from the tooth fairy.
I am reminded of the power of experiencing what obstacles turn into in the healed state. It definitely propelled me forward. I trust that premise. I experience all the challenges of the past enhancing and gifting me with a wondrous and magical relationship with Mother Earth and her worlds. It remains a bit challenging for me to be around a lot of people. I have some treasured long standing friendships that are renewed, and moving forward to find out who I am as an artist, and this project I am jumping into. This is something I have held near and dear to my heart for years. I will share more later.
I can see how important it is to make sure the subconscious is on board for the changes being asked for. To care for that relationship with greater attention and an awakening to the fact that the inner child is willing to follow and enhance this journey with its vast resources. Celebrating victories is important, really important. I saw an exercise one to write all your successes on little pieces of paper and put them in a jar or bowl. This exercise had you open it at the beginning of the new year and Ii would reflect a few times a month would be very powerful. It is so easy to fall into the habit of seeing all the things that need to be changed, and slip into the good/bad right/wrong approach to life.
Take a moment, and fling the door open to your victories, small, large, one step at a time victories, celebrate them and experience a profound shift in connecting to your intuition and inner child. Rest in knowing you are on course.