One of the things coming to the forefront of my awareness these days is our innate fear of our feelings. Sure, we all have it easy in feeling our positive and more lofty feelings. We feel we are doing right, being a good person.
Have you ever noticed when you feel fear, sadness or any feeling that it is less than positive, we instantly feel we are doing something wrong or we want to fix it. I was always curious about that. I have invested decades in learning how to be with my feelings, all of them.
The magic of learning how to be with your feelings without judgement, just being present and welcoming them up, allows them to transform very quickly. Feeling them, and not judging them allows them to surface so you can actually free up tons of energy that has been held inside you by your fear of doing something bad or wrong.
Notice how all our doctrine and hierarchical relationships reinforce this belief. We must be good and positive, turn the other cheek or just get over it. That part of ourselves that is darker must be stopped at all costs. Locked away, cut out or confined. This is reflected throughout our world, and for me is expressed clearly in how we deal with anything different than us, racially, wild animals in zoos, wars etc. We have been trained in this approach for 2,000 years. (for more study read "User Illusion" by tor Norreanders)
If this approach (of domination) is the way, how come our world looks the way it does?
Through the last few decades I have learned some really wonderful techniques that support feeling these feelings with the intention of elevating them. If our instinctual self or low self has all our feelings, good and bad, and also accesses the greatest computer in the world, which holds our intergenerational wisdom it would make sense to understand that part of ourselves. It makes sense to build a bridge, in order to transform. Denial and oppression will not retrain our feelings. Covering them up with pretty words and affirmations does not transform them. My experience is you must feel them or they remained trapped in our physical bodies.That is what disease is, just trapped feelings and memories.
By establishing relationship with our inner child or instinctual self, we can elevate the part of ourselves that runs our bodies, makes all our choices and processes 11,000,000 bits of information per second. The doorway to our genius..
Over thirty-five years ago I made a powerful commitment to do whatever it took to heal myself.. My emotional life was a mess and I began my search for tools and technologies that produced