One of my teachers said each of us is really only dealing with one or two patterns a lifetime, and that pattern changes form or where it shows up frequently.
I developed a system that identifies a cluster of information that forms along the line of communication between the 3 selves. This cluster of information blocks outcomes or transformation, because old memories get triggered. It provides a space to see the memory triggered and a profound opportunity to rewrite that conversation, repeatedly until the pattern shifts. I call this technology the Philosopher's Stone. A powerful tool to retrieve your lightest light held in some dark spaces and memories.
When I was introduced to the roles of the 3 selves, it added another universe to my journey. A universe where I could remember my dreams again, have hope and faith again, and up the ante on retrieving many years of my memory loss.
A pattern that was passed through the women in my lineage, was one of prolonged illness followed by death or insanity. Most were extremely ill, often hospitalized, for over
I too followed that pathway. I do not go to doctors, except when I lost my eyesight to cataracts or dental problems. I have experienced physical challenges for almost 20 years, and have come to understand the consciousness of disease. It continues to reveal itself as I step into a greater place of homeostasis; opening the doorway to miracles.
It was in writing this blog I uncovered a step that I had not paid much attention to. I always seemed to be in a fight for my life. Almost daily investing in natural remedies, and protocols. I studied and worked with the herbs, and had my happiest of days communing with the flowers and making flower essences. I was blessed to have 2 years of continuous ceremonies and learning from them.
The step I had not paid attention to was all disease is the result of a need or needs not being met for the inner child. It hit me like a ton of bricks and also excited me to discover what I had not seen yet.
I got to work right away delving into a deeper communion with my inner child. First night nothing. Second night it began to open. Third night a life changer. My inner child began revealing some very deep needs not being met. I suppose I knew some of these and yet when put together and relayed to me this way was a shocker, painful and moments to recommit to care for myself in new ways.
This communion was an honor and also humbling. I was reminded to remember this journey of discovery was forever and to refrain from the mindset I had all the answers.
For all intents and purposes I have lived a very isolated life in these mountains for over 20 years. This has been a very special inward time, seeking my passion and joy within. A
I have had a lot of fun, and this last year I began longing for more time with friends and to show up in life in new ways. Every step I took seemed to be met with a dead end.
Now I understood why, or a big portion of why. I also had been remiss in petitioning my High Self to heal me. All in all its an opportunity to stay awake more.
There are some very fun aspects to this. As this communion is a daily conversation I also ask my inner child what she needs today.
I followed her direction. I had a divinely fun and exciting 2 days in the studio this weekend, a huge learning curve, and a blissful time.
So if you have struggled with a block or pattern in your life, create a meditation where you can commune with all aspects of yourself. I created a space in a field of flowers and plants, thousands of butterflies, warm sun and wind, and petitioning the help of my High Self. It was like meeting my Guardian Angel for the first time. I can feel some major changes in the works. I am jazzed
Next week I am off to meet my tooth fairy again. Last trip was the most pain I have experienced ever, this time will be easy, and I get to spend time with some treasured friends.