Last night , I was meditating, and wondering how I could address some little stumbling blocks on the 3 Selves.
When I was in Phoenix, I was talking with a dear friend about the Inner Child, and she said it was like she had multiple personalities. Inner Child, Mind, and some big self. I have heard this from quite a few friends and somehow not being able to really connect with the subconscious/inner child. Somehow it made it more difficult.
Sleepless nights is a great time to do some of my inner work. Last night I saw the three selves as three streams of light/consciousness that filled my inner world, creating either divergent outcomes, chaos, or working together to elevate the triple man, or humaness and begin to unite and merge.
IT was like three giant tubes of paint, releasing its color or expression, and doing this dance within. By doing Ho'oponopono and cleaning programming and memories, the dance changed into this most beautiful mesmerizing light show.
It never has been like 3 beings living inside me and it has been helpful to understand their specific roles.
Our neighborhood is tackling this kudzu invasion and with 5 families we certainly have many opinions and alas some tensions. I turned my focus within me to know this is just my memory. My focus came off trying to fix the situation, and look inside. I was elated with the results and ease of a moment that in the past would have been a huge reaction.
The next day a different situation showed itself, and was more difficult for me to come back to my center. It is like flexing a never used muscle and am excited to live "not taking things so personally".
I have been working with the 3 selves for over 12 years and feel like a new babe in my understanding. Things are working, and energies are starting to let loose.
Situations that would have stopped me in my tracks are not only becoming manageable, a sense of discovery and adventure is being birthed.
My greatest takeaway is unless I build a deeper inner trust, and invoke my High Self and Creator, my patterns and memories will not transform.