I am so fascinated by how sensitive we are and how our subconscious, processes and incredible 11,000,000 bits of information per second and how important it is to befriend that part of ourselves and begin to elevate that relationship. Max Freedom Long says that relationship is one of the most important we have.
I have been doing this for a number of years now and I am finding it easier to look at these hidden conversations without so much judgement. That enables me to look at conversations that need to be reframed without much drama.
Through the years I have found some people would rather go insane than feel, or die rather than feel. From my studies one of the functions of the mental body is to remain perched within our consciousness as judge and jury, and to keep us in the known at all costs. Anything that is “otherness” to us is a danger and needs to be imprisoned or killed.
If you look at how we treat “otherness”, racially, sexually, unknown species, ET’s, creepy crawlers and even disease, we want to isolate, confine and destroy. Monitor their movement at all costs. For disease, we create chemicals to wage war on what ails us, or cut it out. Think about it, antibiotics means anti-life. I had a dear friend, full blooded Cherokee, who developed cancer, and had spent time in Vietnam during the war. At Duke they diagnosed him with cancer of his tongue and said they had a very high cure rate. By the time the finished dissecting him he was so tired and beaten, he eventually let go. They cut out most of his tongue, his lymph nodes, jaw bone and muscles in his neck. My brother in law developed stage 4 pancreatic cancer, metastasized to his liver, and they kept pumping him full of chemo after having been given 2 weeks to live. What drives this approach to healing? I am convinced it is driven by the mental body. It is one course of treatment, but it does not take into account the whole person. We have become so specialized in many arenas we do not take into account the whole. Each system affects another. I am convinced I am still vertical because I have been treating my consciousness and my sometimes heroic attempts at treating the physical, and my approach has had to be more holistic because I have never had a diagnosis outside the suspect tumor 20 years ago.
I am so thankful I moved into these woods 18 years ago, and that I created a lifestyle that gave me the time and environment to delve into this inquiry about consciousness.
If our old ways are so effective, being positive, be spiritual, suppress everything else, and bury, why would the world look the way it does? If our world is a product of our consciousness, we truly are missing the mark. I often look out into the world and take a few deep breaths and continue to work on my own programming, because there seems little else I can do.
One of the things I love the most is what I have learned by assuming greater responsibility. It seems to open my energy, opens my forgiveness for the choices I have made and to nurture the seed of self-love. Otherwise the victim mentality sets in and I continually look at what I am doing wrong and looking outside myself for help. There are certainly many moments of fear that arise, and as I journey through this I know that is natural, my mental body is fearful of the new and do some inner work to connect to my subconscious or inner child. I have found whenever my old pattern emerges, or I seem stopped by leaping into the unknown, all is good and it is quite natural, and I move forward, often with many little steps, and change happens. Sometime I remark how this life is truly leading me into a life of trusting in life and Creator, and that all my inner nudges are leading me into my love and passion, if I can just let go. That has been like building new muscles, many repetitive choices.
I am reminded when times get tough, I am magnetized to repeat certain patterns and approaches and if they are not working I have to interrupt my approach and try something new. The resistance I experience is not my self-sabotage, it is magnetics, and the pull of those magnetics, depending on the subject may be fueled by others who feel the same way.
Imagine coming from a lineage of women who become bedridden for 10 plus years. Even though my sister and I have been estranged through most of the last 25 years, we both have exhibited most of the same symptoms. One of the great concepts I learned is if we approach our healing from dealing with the symptoms, we will have to wage war, and most likely lose. That is because the symptoms are places in consciousness that have gained mush mass, energy and form. It is important to discover approaches that allow us to deal with these symptoms by uncovering the places of least resistance. It is so much easier. I believe collectively we are being presented with many moments to think way outside of the box to support us and our world to come back into greater balance.
And that brings me back to the idea of being one of many pathfinders. Can we not find greater compassion and healing from the courage it takes to change and understand our evolution? Spiritual beings having a human experience. Going against our old approaches to build strong inner relationships within our 3 selves so we can be more spirit driven, as well as accessing the doorway to our vast abilities to problem solve. Look at all these amazing children worldwide that are coming up with radical solutions to energy and cleaning our environment. The see the problem and just jump in. There are so many breakthroughs throughout the world. I just love understanding what is behind the resistance.
In the book “User Illusion” by Tors Norreanders, he delves deeply into the magic that happens with many of the all-time greats in the field of sports, theater, and music and business. These great coaches understood these resistances and the importance of doing many repetitive exercises to build trust with our conscious mind.
Through acts of building this trust, we reach moments of surrender, surrender to our subconscious and the most sublime moments happen, effortlessly.
As an artist, I crave and consciously work on building that trust, and strive for moments of surrender. Those are the places where time disappears, and where the magic of who we are comes into play.
When I work with the flowers and herbs, my innocence is called forth, and I live in a wondrous world, I just have to learn how to bridge it into other areas that have been challenging. Bridging areas I naturally trust to areas I do not have that trust. And the plants are given to us by creator to support us bridging heaven and earth through our bodies.
Over thirty-five years ago I made a powerful commitment to do whatever it took to heal myself.. My emotional life was a mess and I began my search for tools and technologies that produced