I have heard it said, we teach what we need to learn. I find that true for me. I was talking with a friend in Phoenix, and she had begun a blog, and found she started writing to please. What I mean by that is she sat down to share and her mind went to "writing for others". That has happened a number of times and when I experience that I will elevate that conversation.
That being said, today I am writing for me and to share how cool this stuff is when it works. This is not an easy time for for me. I know this is true for many right now, and maybe if we shared how we were navigating through some of this stuff it would be a wonderful resource. I know it is easier together.
Within the last 60 days, a beloved business has crashed and burned, borrowed money against my house for all this dental work, intense challenges with my health. Scarey symptoms.
When I left for Mexico this trip and all hell broke loose. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I kept looking at what need was I not meeting. I started doing my cleaning of old programming (learned by SITH Ho'oponono, so worth experiencing), and things started shifting and elevating almost immediately. There were new approaches that opened many more openings of my heart, energy and ability to connect.
It took me over 15 hours to arrive home yesterday and slept over 14 hours. Upon awakening, I was filled with immense sadness, I was discourage at the failed business after 30 years and all that would be at the effect of this loss. I instantly became soul weary. It was looking bleak, and I could not see a way out. I thought to myself I have to walk into my sadness and feel it all. Maybe that would open thing up, or at least reveal some possibilities. I said to myself, if this does not work I may just roll over.
My dental journey was intense. 6-7 hours of ugh. Then coming home I saw the alert signs of serous rain and storms ahead. A 2 hour drive became an almost 5 hour drive. Then slept 14 hours. That is how afraid I was to feel my feelings, and face the possible losses in front of me.
I walked into my feelings, prayed and breathed into it all with as little resistance as possible. OMG!!!!! In less that 5 minutes, a huge door opened. I just started following each idea as it presented itself. A first in this kind of ease. I became emboldened, i felt bold, courageous and trusting what is in front of me.
I left for the bank, ran some errands. You know when we drive we are in the right side of our brain and it is easy to access heightened states of awareness. Wow in a 30 minutes, I knew what steps to take. When I woke up there was an interview about a young girl that was raising her little brother, worked 3 jobs, wrote over 100 letters of introduction and found her perfect dream career. She said "if you are persistent someone will find you".I took that as a possible God wink. At one stop I heard the song OOHHH child things are going to get easier. I smiled. Then walking to the next store a dragonfly followed above me to the door.
I began experience great gratitude and a great sense of purpose and direction.