I thought it would be fun to share some of the tools and approaches I have learned throughout the years, and some approaches that can lead to your own special tools. I am convinced one the reasons I am finding my way through this painful past is by matching the magnitude of my pattern with my commitment.
In other words my commitment has to be equal to or greater than the pattern I want to transform.
The second important step is learning to ask the right questions. There are many authors and teachers that have some fun theories and approaches. For me, when I am up against the wall I set my intent or prayer.
I know there are many ancestors and pathfinders through the ages have solved the complex journey into enlightenment. I also know for me to have chosen this path.
I have the blueprint or knowledge on how to transform or shift this issue no matter how big it may seem. I call on the earth, moon, stars and those that have gone before me to show me the way. Ultimately my prayers are always answered.
Sometime I am attached to how it might or must look I may miss the moment. I have been known to sit with my back to a tree or lay belly down on the earth and ask for help. I do live as a hermit most of the time so I haven't cared what other people would think. If you are shy about this, create a special spot inside, or a place in nature that speaks to you.
I was given an inspired meditation that I will post you can try and make your own.
This is one of my favorites to come back into balance with myself.
When I go through a darker space with scary feelings, this tool works great. Write it down, write it down without filters or judgement. Feeling streaming. Just write. When you are done, don't even read it. I stay focused on the fact that I am releasing trapped energy. Then burn it or shred it. I had a student who wrote everything down and then spent countless hours rereading it. I am not sure if that keeps you ensnared with the pain or not. Just notice, if you feel more light it is released.
Put on some music, let your feelings flow. The more "present" you are to your feelings the faster the release. This is where the magic happens.
When I was a young girl, around 7 I went on a camping trip with my father and friends. I was horribly abused. Raped by each one. It took many many years for me to release the anguish I carried. Just know you will never feel more that you can handle, ever. I always call in the souls of the "Great Beings" to help me, and they come. Never be too shy to ask.
I actually have this moment on video. I was filmed while in front of about 20 peers, and my teacher asked me how I was feeling. I said "terrified". He said, "no you are not. You are terrified of feeling your feelings. When you do, this moment will transform in minutes."
This is one of the most transforming distinctions learned this lifetime. There are so many things you can do to make this easier. Build inner trust. I have walked through unspeakable horrors just using this. Simple, yet not always easy.
Anyway I took a breath, touched my feelings and got present my terror. Breathing is important. You can see me transform in moments. My physical stature changed. I was glad to have someone being my cheerleader through this. I would say it was less than 10 minutes and the doorway to forgiveness opened along with much understanding.
I say again, you will never feel more than you can handle.
One more tool I want to share here is finding the big picture of the memory you are healing.
Each seemingly negative experience or pattern turns into the opposite when healed. A fun exercise is to make a list of memories that caused much pain.
For instance, I used to be terrified of speaking to others or in front of others. That turns into me sharing clearly and passionately.
I drew in a lot of betrayal this lifetime. That turns into having empowered relationships and I am honored and cherished by my community.
Trust has been hard for me to experience, or allow. That turns into I am supported by life......God has my back.
I have used these methods to walk out of a childhood not many people have lived through mush less exploring my heart and the goodness and magic of my life. Give it a try........